I just realized.
you know what's coming up way too soon?
what's filling me with more dread than anything?
even more than tomorrow?
... In 51 days
in 1,224 hours.
I'm gonna legally be an adult.
I will be 18.
My childhood will officially have ended. And even given the sayings about youth never ending, legally that's the case.
I will be old enough to vote next election.
I.... will never be a kid again, physically.
In 51 days.
... um... this is gonna sound really shallow, but I might legit have a mental breakdown this Birthmas Eve (Since my birthday is December 29th, I'm between Christmas and New Years Eve)
Can you guys remember my birthday and
try to keep me from turning into a sobbing wreck?
I kind of want art gifts but that seems like a shitty shallow person thing to do but I don't know maybe it'll keep me from the soul crushing realization of how my life will never be the same even if nothing changes at all???
good lord I'm
I'm scared and I've still
... Still freaking the FUCK OUT.
I'M LITERALLY 552 HOURS FROM BEING A LEGAL ADULT WHO GAVE ME THIS POWER WHO DECIDED THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THIS?????
I MEAN JESUS CHRIST
I DON'T WANT CHILDHOOD TO BE OVERI CAN'T ADULTI can't even deal with being legally an adult more in concept than in reality
like i get it's like
not actually a sign of anything but the passage of time
BUT HOLY SHIT the passage of time is.... terrifying.
My thanatophobia is so extreme that just knowing the concept of legal adulthood is too close tothat
for me to handle.
.... so um
while I freak the fuck out.... Why don't I just... pretend everything's ok and... uh... tell everyone what I want for Birthmas Eve? (since my Birthday is on the 29th, in the middle between Christmas and New Years Eve, it's Birthmas Eve)..... you know, christmas, birthday... kinda the same package for me, so this counts as both.
if you want
i would love
to have fanart... oh god i sound manipulative as hell please help me from my own brain my own brain thinks TELLING PEOPLE WHAT I WOULD LIKE FOR A GIFT GIVING HOLIDAY IS WRONG BECAUSE I'M BEING A SELFISH PERSON THIS IS HOW MY BRAIN WORKS.
Ok, ok, got over it. Sort of. I'm still out of it, but you know, let's pretend
I'm over it.
Birthmas Eve Wishlist?
take this all with a grain of salt ok it's not like I'm begging for literally everything I just want to put it out there for whoever wants to KNOW what I would like ok?... god i worry about this too much..
- HIGH PRIORITY: Equestria Gems/anything in this folder.
- Second Priority: , , and anyone else from the Miracleverse!
- MAXIMUM OVERLOAD PRIORITY: THIS IS MY GIRLFRIEND AND I LOVE HER AND SHIT OK??? LET'S SURPRISE HER WITH SHITTONS OF SHIPPING PICS!
- Total Drama Fans: Anyone who's a fan of my TD stuff (I'm sorry), I'm still a huge, huge, massive Samkota shipper. And all I want for Birthmas is some Dakotazoid, preferably with her small boyfriend. And for the angsty friends, I'm still into Sadie/Ezekiel~
- Undertale Fans: Anyone drawing things I ship from Undertale, I adore Soriel, Papyton (Calculator Mettaton!), Friskkid, and honestly, seeing people use the designs I do for Undertale is great!
- MLP Fans: My ultimate ship, forever and ever, is always going to be Pinkie Pie and Rainbow Dash, people! I adore Pinkiedash so much! I also want to spread my crack ships, so ,, and of course, . Anything TFIM, actually, is great!
- OTHER: I adore Death Glare and Sylander from Wander Over Yonder! (Hater/Peepers and Sylvia/Wander respectively) and Carrie/Darwin from The Amazing World of Gumball.
HELP ME I'M ALMOST LEGALLY AN ADULT AND I'M SCARED.